I am bi-curious. After years of being like this, I finally bought my first dildo. It vibrates and thrusts too. I always thought I wouldn't be able to take a dick in my asshole It's about 7 inches, and pushes out another inch or so when it thrusts. I looked up good lube for anal and used it. It slipped right up to my sphincter, then I had my first barrier. I waited until I got used to it then pushed past it. Once it got into my rectum I could slip it down all the way inside me. I literally had the balls pushing against my entrance! It was hitting the back of my rectum, I could feel the wall. It kind of hurt but the whole thing was so primal and sexual that it actually felt good, but in a completely overwhelming kind of way. I let the thing fuck the back of my insides for about 10-15 minutes before I felt too overwhelmed. It was kind of exhausting. It demanded a lot from me.
I know I can take this 7 to 7 1/2 inches, but I am sure I couldn't take anything deeper. The problem is that if I ever did work up the courage to reach out to another man to ask if he would fuck me for the firs time, he could very well be too long, and it only feels good to me when I feel totally stretched out by the width and the dildo/cock is violently pounding the full insides of me. That means I wouldn't want a cock shorter or longer. How do I get up the courage to experience this for the first time, find someone that lives in my area, is STD-free, wants to take my anal virginity, and has a dick that size? I could take thicker, but not deeper.
Will this always remain a fantasy?